Everyday!

I know you have heard this before, “Live your truth”. What does this mean to you? I took a lot of time to think about this and I think that is how I found my way back to myself again. I had done something really stupid about 11 years ago that took me down a dark dangerous path. I was told don’t be yourself. If you want this relationship to work then you can’t be you. So like a dip shit I listened.

When I decided that I was worth living for. Not for my family or my children but for me! I really decided that I was going to find me again and start living my life honestly. I speak my mind and show my love and do my best to be honest in my life.

I do not hide things from my children or anyone for that matter. I have found that I am happier and feel better about myself since I decided to do this. I take no shit from anyone and I don’t hide the fact if I don’t like someone. That does not mean I am rude just honest. There is a difference.

I am living for me no one else. I am my top priority. I know others say that that put their children or spouse first but when I do that everyone suffers. Taking care of myself first brings peace and happiness to everyone around me because they are not suffering because of my bad mood. This is difficult for some people but for me I have found it extremely beneficial.

So take some time and find time for you! put yourself first and see hoe fast everything else falls into place.

It is never over

I have been at that point when I thought my life was over. I was at such a low point that I was sure that life was over and I was sure that my life wasn’t going to get better. I have lost a ton of my material possessions and had to file bankruptcy so I could start over. Starting over is never easy and digging yourself out of the whole that you got in is definitely not a fun time but I have learned more about myself in the last six years then I ever have.

I was truly at the bottom and while I have not gotten back on top so to speak I have definitely gotten out of the whole. I am constantly making modifications to my goals because life happens but I am slowly and surely plugging forward everyday towards my goals.

Ridding myself of the drama and life sucking people in my life has helped tremendously! It was not a easy decision but so well worth it. I was making bad decisions and choices because of the negative people around me. Now that I am on the others side looking in I am amazed at others who don’t see the situation they are in but I know that they must figure it our for themselves. I am on my own journey.

I have a small circle of support that I can trust but I am very happy that I am on the right track. I have a tendency to get sidetracked with my children and their lives but I am feeling more like the tortoise than the hare. Slow and steady is slowly wining the race!